Here I will explain how Facebook is having a relation to what is happening in life. There is no scientific explanation but there is a link. And this link is due to something called as "Nazar". What you post becomes a 'Nazar' which essentially means 'Evil Eye'. You can Google it but I will sure write about it in detail in another post.
First incident to show a link was when I was using Facebook and my moms health did not improve. At that time I was using Samsung Galaxy Tab and I took a photo on my Tab and uploaded it to Facebook for all to see. And then I had asked all people to 'pray so that my moms health improves'. A lot of people posted their well-wishes.Then after a few days I removed the photo because I felt that I should not have a 'weak image'. After all 'image' is something which cannot be ignored in this world. It should not appear that I was being a kind of 'crybaby'. Also I had driven my bike from Bengaluru till Bhubaneswar and wanted to post those photos in Facebook and somehow I felt that it would not 'be compatible'. Later I tried to restore that photo with the comments but then I found out it cannot be done. "Facebook does not restore your deleted photos/comments". Then I re-posted my mothers photo several times but nothing could match the first photo response.
Second was that Channel W users found a place in Facebook and it was a Group. I had joined that group and began to post my 'experiences and memories' of Channel W. In Channel W, there used to be 'smileys'. And there was a small yellow smiley which was vomiting 'green stuff'. I had posted a 'memory' related to one incident and believe it or not on the same day my mom started vomiting the green stuff as a side effect of cancer. That 'green stuff' which my mom was vomiting was 'bile' and it comes from liver. This was in Oct 2011. At that time I was shocked as to how something I post in Facebook could have a direct link to what happened to my mother. I think only after that I posted my moms picture on Facebook. Earlier to that I was staying clear of posting anything on Facebook happening in my personal life. But since I found this coincidental and shocking at the same time, I thought may be if I post about my mother's ill-health she would recover. Ultimately it was not to be.
My mom was being given Ayurvedic medicines at that time and after this vomiting of green stuff even those medicines were stopped. After that homeopathic medicines were given but those too did not work.
Third was the incident on my moms last day in Jan 2012. At that time I was deep into Facebook and I used to check Facebook and then check on my mom and so on I used to do. At that time I shared on Facebook, "Darius and Finlay- Do it All Night" song. I thought it was a catchy song and I had come to know about the same from DVJ Bazuka version. And since due to the explicit content of DVJ Bazuka video, that video was not available on YouTube and some other video with the same track was available same thing I shared. And immediately after two to five minutes my father came and told me that let us not sleep tonight as moms health deteriorated too much. After that I even left with empty oxygen cylinder for refill which we had borrowed from neighbour Doctor's house. Then about an hour or two later my moms heartbeat and pulse stopped and she went into coma and then Doctor came and declared her dead. But our night did not end there. In ambulance we carried her body to my native place and then cremation was done.
Fourth incident was after my moms death and conclusion of the ceremonies in Feb 2012. I opened a page in Facebook as a tribute to my mother and uploaded all the last snaps I had of her. Unfortunately due to the disease, my mom had deteriorated in appearance and she did not want her 'patient like' condition to be shown to the world. Even earlier in Oct 2011 when I had first posted her photo on Facebook she probably did not like it. Even my father did not like it. At that time my father told that one photo was enough and there was no need to post more. And now after her death, it went to another level. There was complete animosity between my father and sisters and myself. My father told that this is no way to remember and respect your mother. In case I wanted I could print those and keep it in album and not 'show to the world'. Similarly, my sisters said the same thing. Then I had told that I wanted to be with my mother and 'join my mother'. Later that night I saw my mother in my dreams and so I decided to remove the photos and delete the page from Facebook itself. Slowly, in a few months time (by August 2012) my Facebook account would stand deleted and I would withdraw from Facebook for ever.
First incident to show a link was when I was using Facebook and my moms health did not improve. At that time I was using Samsung Galaxy Tab and I took a photo on my Tab and uploaded it to Facebook for all to see. And then I had asked all people to 'pray so that my moms health improves'. A lot of people posted their well-wishes.Then after a few days I removed the photo because I felt that I should not have a 'weak image'. After all 'image' is something which cannot be ignored in this world. It should not appear that I was being a kind of 'crybaby'. Also I had driven my bike from Bengaluru till Bhubaneswar and wanted to post those photos in Facebook and somehow I felt that it would not 'be compatible'. Later I tried to restore that photo with the comments but then I found out it cannot be done. "Facebook does not restore your deleted photos/comments". Then I re-posted my mothers photo several times but nothing could match the first photo response.
Second was that Channel W users found a place in Facebook and it was a Group. I had joined that group and began to post my 'experiences and memories' of Channel W. In Channel W, there used to be 'smileys'. And there was a small yellow smiley which was vomiting 'green stuff'. I had posted a 'memory' related to one incident and believe it or not on the same day my mom started vomiting the green stuff as a side effect of cancer. That 'green stuff' which my mom was vomiting was 'bile' and it comes from liver. This was in Oct 2011. At that time I was shocked as to how something I post in Facebook could have a direct link to what happened to my mother. I think only after that I posted my moms picture on Facebook. Earlier to that I was staying clear of posting anything on Facebook happening in my personal life. But since I found this coincidental and shocking at the same time, I thought may be if I post about my mother's ill-health she would recover. Ultimately it was not to be.
My mom was being given Ayurvedic medicines at that time and after this vomiting of green stuff even those medicines were stopped. After that homeopathic medicines were given but those too did not work.
Third was the incident on my moms last day in Jan 2012. At that time I was deep into Facebook and I used to check Facebook and then check on my mom and so on I used to do. At that time I shared on Facebook, "Darius and Finlay- Do it All Night" song. I thought it was a catchy song and I had come to know about the same from DVJ Bazuka version. And since due to the explicit content of DVJ Bazuka video, that video was not available on YouTube and some other video with the same track was available same thing I shared. And immediately after two to five minutes my father came and told me that let us not sleep tonight as moms health deteriorated too much. After that I even left with empty oxygen cylinder for refill which we had borrowed from neighbour Doctor's house. Then about an hour or two later my moms heartbeat and pulse stopped and she went into coma and then Doctor came and declared her dead. But our night did not end there. In ambulance we carried her body to my native place and then cremation was done.
Fourth incident was after my moms death and conclusion of the ceremonies in Feb 2012. I opened a page in Facebook as a tribute to my mother and uploaded all the last snaps I had of her. Unfortunately due to the disease, my mom had deteriorated in appearance and she did not want her 'patient like' condition to be shown to the world. Even earlier in Oct 2011 when I had first posted her photo on Facebook she probably did not like it. Even my father did not like it. At that time my father told that one photo was enough and there was no need to post more. And now after her death, it went to another level. There was complete animosity between my father and sisters and myself. My father told that this is no way to remember and respect your mother. In case I wanted I could print those and keep it in album and not 'show to the world'. Similarly, my sisters said the same thing. Then I had told that I wanted to be with my mother and 'join my mother'. Later that night I saw my mother in my dreams and so I decided to remove the photos and delete the page from Facebook itself. Slowly, in a few months time (by August 2012) my Facebook account would stand deleted and I would withdraw from Facebook for ever.
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