My mom suffered from cancer and it was detected in 4th Stage in June 2009 any she died on January 2012. She fought the disease for 2 and half years before finally succumbing to it.
Meanwhile, I was using yahoo and yahoo groups upto 2006-07. Only in 2006-07, I came to know about Myspace and joined it. Then due to my ex MBA friends that was post mid-2006 I came to know about other networks like Orkut, hi5 and few others which I cannot recollect.
Even during my MBA days (2004-06), I or we students did not use social networks to connect with each other. Instead we relied on good old email or email groups and chatting.
By around beginning of 2009, I was using very less social networks and I had deleted my Orkut account as well. Exact date or month when I deleted the Orkut account I cannot recollect now after so many years.
In Orkut I remember I had adopted the picture of Grim reaper as my Avatar. I also adopted the Slipknot and 'Nayantara actress' avatars as well. But then my grandmother died in 2008 and now I am always haunted whether it was due to my adopting the 'Grim Reaper' as my Avatar. Because Grim Reaper once invoked never leaves you. I did not want to mention this anywhere and certainly not in a blog because by mentioning it I may be invoking the Grim Reaper once more. But facts have to be cleared and once it is out of my mind I would feel 'lighter'.
If my grandmothers death was not enough, my mom suffered from the 'deadliest forms of cancer' and how much she would survive was not known.
The fact is I deleted my Orkut account and this was due to the fact that the company where I worked , namely Wipro had a forum which was a 'PhpBB" based form and it was Channel W. I began using Channel W forum in March 2007 and used it till Dec 2010 when the phpBB forum was retired for a 'new kind of forum' which did not have the same charm. now Channel W was only accessible by employees of Wipro and that was a fault. Many content I had posted inside Channel W because I never thought that my company would 'throw me out' so easily. I though Channel W would 'remain with me forever'. Anyway that was not to be and fate had something else in store for me.
In Channel W, people used to do 'editing', it means they would 'quote someone' and edit the post so that it would appear that the other person had said something which in fact he would not have said (or written). In that also I had done editing for a person that "Main Janaza main niklunga". It was wrong on my part. When you edit like that it wrong. (Janaza means funeral procession)
And that (Janaza like situation) I was forced to do. I could not or did not attend my grandmothers' funeral until the very last day. That was another fault. I should have left my office and job and attended to my grandmothers funeral immediately and not wait towards the end of the formalities. My grandmother probably felt bad. She too deserved respect.
Then I had to witness my mom suffering cancer and passing away and I was bound to take part in funeral. Hence, what I am saying if you say something ill for another even in fun manner and the same thing may happen to you. Life lessons to be learnt is to always speak and write something which is 'right'. Let us not 'stray from the right path'.
Let us pray to Lord that he brings us to the 'right path'.
Then in 2009 middle I came to hear about Facebook. Again it was a Channel W friend who had send me friend request both in Facebook and Linkedin and that is how I came to know about it. Then again I did not use Facebook much until I left my job in my ex-company in July 2011. Here I would like to tell three or four incidents which have left a deep impact on me and how I am unable to disassociate Facebook with what happened to my mom.
To avoid making the blog post too long and making 'interest disappear' I will continue in another post.
Meanwhile, I was using yahoo and yahoo groups upto 2006-07. Only in 2006-07, I came to know about Myspace and joined it. Then due to my ex MBA friends that was post mid-2006 I came to know about other networks like Orkut, hi5 and few others which I cannot recollect.
Even during my MBA days (2004-06), I or we students did not use social networks to connect with each other. Instead we relied on good old email or email groups and chatting.
By around beginning of 2009, I was using very less social networks and I had deleted my Orkut account as well. Exact date or month when I deleted the Orkut account I cannot recollect now after so many years.
In Orkut I remember I had adopted the picture of Grim reaper as my Avatar. I also adopted the Slipknot and 'Nayantara actress' avatars as well. But then my grandmother died in 2008 and now I am always haunted whether it was due to my adopting the 'Grim Reaper' as my Avatar. Because Grim Reaper once invoked never leaves you. I did not want to mention this anywhere and certainly not in a blog because by mentioning it I may be invoking the Grim Reaper once more. But facts have to be cleared and once it is out of my mind I would feel 'lighter'.
If my grandmothers death was not enough, my mom suffered from the 'deadliest forms of cancer' and how much she would survive was not known.
The fact is I deleted my Orkut account and this was due to the fact that the company where I worked , namely Wipro had a forum which was a 'PhpBB" based form and it was Channel W. I began using Channel W forum in March 2007 and used it till Dec 2010 when the phpBB forum was retired for a 'new kind of forum' which did not have the same charm. now Channel W was only accessible by employees of Wipro and that was a fault. Many content I had posted inside Channel W because I never thought that my company would 'throw me out' so easily. I though Channel W would 'remain with me forever'. Anyway that was not to be and fate had something else in store for me.
In Channel W, people used to do 'editing', it means they would 'quote someone' and edit the post so that it would appear that the other person had said something which in fact he would not have said (or written). In that also I had done editing for a person that "Main Janaza main niklunga". It was wrong on my part. When you edit like that it wrong. (Janaza means funeral procession)
And that (Janaza like situation) I was forced to do. I could not or did not attend my grandmothers' funeral until the very last day. That was another fault. I should have left my office and job and attended to my grandmothers funeral immediately and not wait towards the end of the formalities. My grandmother probably felt bad. She too deserved respect.
Then I had to witness my mom suffering cancer and passing away and I was bound to take part in funeral. Hence, what I am saying if you say something ill for another even in fun manner and the same thing may happen to you. Life lessons to be learnt is to always speak and write something which is 'right'. Let us not 'stray from the right path'.
Let us pray to Lord that he brings us to the 'right path'.
Then in 2009 middle I came to hear about Facebook. Again it was a Channel W friend who had send me friend request both in Facebook and Linkedin and that is how I came to know about it. Then again I did not use Facebook much until I left my job in my ex-company in July 2011. Here I would like to tell three or four incidents which have left a deep impact on me and how I am unable to disassociate Facebook with what happened to my mom.
To avoid making the blog post too long and making 'interest disappear' I will continue in another post.
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